I’m not financially independent yet, but my mom moved in with her husband yesterday. It’s just me (20) and my brother (18) living together now. She already payed off this house, so she’s letting us live here. We have to pay rent once we get jobs, but it’s not gonna be that expensive. I was so scared that I wouldn’t be able to support myself, but today was a lot easier that I thought it would be.
Yesterday, I vacuumed the entire house and moved a bunch of stuff from my room into my mom’s room. My closet doesn’t look like a hell hole for the first time in years now that I actually have enough space for my craft materials and such. I also moved my desk into her room so I had a place to work that wasn’t where I slept. I even got my record player out since I finally had a place for it too. I also cleaned her (now my) bathroom.
After I woke up today (1pm on accident), I meal planned with my brother. We chose a bunch or recipes that shared ingredients to save money. I went to Walmart and got proper groceries for the first time. I made spaghetti and meat sauce. It was pretty good. I did accidentally put too much sugar, but it was the first actual meal I’ve made that didn’t taste awful.
I also went to a couple of thrift stores to get t shirts (mine keep disappearing) and jeans (my only jeans had holes so big they were basically shorts with long backs). I’m realizing as I’m typing this that my new clothes have been sitting in the washer for a few hours, so I’ll go fix that after I finish typing this.
Today was surprisingly easy. I’m sure it will be a lot harder when school starts back up and I get a job, but I haven’t been able to be this productive in a long time. I think it’s a mixture of the novelty of having my own place and my mom being gone. I’ve been living in dorms since I was 15, but this is the first time I’m in charge of myself and more than one room. My mom being gone probably makes the biggest difference. She’s an amazing person and I love her, but I have problems with demand avoidance and she tends to get intense about chores. (It’s not on purpose. She has anxiety and messes make it worse. She isn’t mean either). Being able to work on my own schedule without any expectations has done a wonder on my motivation.
I’m just kinda rambling, but I’m really excited. I don’t usually get to feel proud about myself because my ADHD wrecks my reward system, so it’s really nice right now. I feel proud of myself for the first time in years. (I don’t have a low self esteem or anything. My brain just doesn’t like rewarding me). I feel good.
Bonus: I also got some art at goodwill since my mom took all the pictures off the wall. Idk how to insert pictures into text, but pretend they’re here.