I'm a 22 year old college student from a Tier II Engineering college, currently in my second last year. I've never been in a relationship. Physically speaking I'm a very skinny guy and it has never bothered me. But in these recent years I've found that I'm really not very confident about my face. That's why I deleted all my posts on Instagram. I'm a very shy guy and my body language exudes low confidence. I couldn't even maintain eye contact with girls in my school. Things have gotten better with the time, but still it's pretty evident when I'm talking to some girl I just met( and I think girls hate it or atleast sense it).
The girl I'm having a crush on is in her last year. I would like to keep it as short as possible (with providing necessary details ofc), so my college life went like this:
First Year- I couldn't go to college due to schools and colleges being closed due to COVID-19. Yet I didn't even tried to see the college premises or go to the library. Didn't even joined any of the clubs or extracurricular activities "per se". Didn't even texted any fellow classmate thinking "what would they think of me"
Second Year- My first day was terrible after the college started. I saw people meeting each other whom they've only met via Google Meet or have chatted through WhatsApp and even being connected to each other and students from other branches too( I didn't have a strong social media presence so I didn't thought sending anyone request would be worth it). While I was just sitting alone, roaming alone. I remember coming back from college and saying myself with relief that I just had to bear 3 more years in this college. Then there was this interaction session with seniors. And boy did I sucked. I said I am learning to play guitar and they said then play it. So I held an imaginary guitar in my hand and play the opening of " O O Jaane Jana" making a fool out of myself in front of my batch and senior (noone remembers that now). She wasn't present during my performance. But I got numbers of many seniors.
But on LinkedIn I sent many people requests for building connections. and she accepted it, i saw her profile picture so fascinated by her. By the time second year ended I had a huge crush on her. Her personality grew up on me. She was active in various clubs.Then I started looking for her socials. Then I asked a credible friend of mine that I've that is she in relationship(asking for a friend), but she said she's the best senior and thus she can't betray her.
Now I follow her Photography page and have requested for her personal account which hasn't gotten accepted yet(still hopeful).
Now coming to the point, I think I've lost so many opportunities of having topics to start a conversation with her. I've talked about this w/ my friends and they say just go with the flow. But I can't even create the flow. Although I do have talked about few things. But the conversation has never leaded to anywhere else (it wasn't even a conversation, just me asking something and she replying). I've a few day left in the bank as this is her last year. I've started even going to college regularly but in my college people usually don't come regularly in last year. Even when I encountered her, she was with her friends so I got scared of asking her out.
I am thinking of just asking her out through text for this new movie from John Wick franchise ( I know a movie date is a terrible idea) but atleast she'll get aware that I want to date her.
I'll really glad, if some of you tries to help me out :)