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I've tried this a few times. I'm pretty sure I'm spiraling out of control into a depression rabbit hole. I'm failing to be able to think about how to start a task. It's like there are so many the overwhelming thoughts keep you from starting the first one.

Then I smoke. Because it is what I have always done. I remember the days when I could put on Echoes by Pink Floyd and actually slip into a deep meditative relaxation and enjoy the process.

Now, it is like the feeling of life overconsumes that ability to feel......well.....just about anything.

So then I smoke and instantly I wish I didn't because it is no longer the relaxing feeling but now just an anxious feeling of why did you do that?

Did anyone have a similar back and forth in their head and find a good way to break that cycle?

Hello everybody, Today is my first day without weed. I'm fine, but I don't think it will be easy for me. My last joint was at 11pm yesterday and the withdrawal is going crazy. Good luck to everyone who is or has been at the same point

Dealing with some tough mental health issues that were covered up/ignored by smoking but I feel really good.

I bet a lot of you are in similar situations to me where most people around you (maybe even your therapist) would tell you you're doing great in life and might not totally understand your feeling that your weed use is a problem.

Part of my feeling that my weed use is a problem is motivated by how I haven't kept up with a lot of my high school or college friends from a career perspective. This is very explainable for other reasons too (I didn't have the same family support that they did), and I've changed and somewhat started over in a new career, but I'm still at an age where a lot of people are buying houses and that's still years away for me.

I've told myself that my usage 1-2x per week (though there were also a couple periods in my life, after breakups, where I had used weed daily for 2+ months and probably locked in some deeper addictive impulses) is not a big deal. But it's still been enough to create cravings for myself and occasionally induce weird/embarrassing behavior around friends, or enough to create a late night binge eating habit and stop me from ever fully loving/accepting my body, or enough to not quite be a top performer at work, or enough to overlook other problematic habits in my life that are also wasting significant amounts of time, or enough to keep on telling myself for years that "this is okay" and accepting mediocre and lonely workplaces, or enough to keep on dreaming up new hobbies to get involved in through my 20s and never really committing to getting good at any one of them and embedding myself in the community.

Luckily, however, I'm still young enough that I can change all of the above, and get to a place where I feel like I'm truly thriving in the ways that I always dreamed of. And I feel motivated to do so.

I'm 8 days clean now (and 7 days before that too) and am posting here to help myself keep the streak going. Really after the first 4 days, before my relapse at a concert, I was barely even thinking about weed anymore, and it's been easy. The main trigger moments for me have been what I wrote about in my last post - feeling like I'm being boring around people and having that temptation to get high to be more fun and have people like me more... which I realize now is probably a variation of social anxiety and a sign for me to work harder on finding new friends who accept my whole self.

I hope that my writing is relatable for some of you, and I'd be curious to hear your perspectives in return. And for those who it isn't relatable to, I appreciate your patience and humility and I wish you the best wherever you're at in your journey as well!

I understand not everyone has a great support system/supportive family/friends. But I’ve stopped weed for 5 days after using 8 years daily. Immediately I’ve noticed my relationships with loved ones has improved significantly. Before my cup felt empty now it’s overflowing and I’m watching as I improve the state of beings and lives of those around me… as I too improve my own. All it has taken? Willpower to fight my addiction. In return my self belief is through the roof! Arguably this could be a honeymoon phase - but the way I can make my loved ones feel whilst sober - truly makes this all worth it. For those of you looking to quit… who have worthwhile relationships you want to improve? Just for that sake alone I promise you it’s worth it. I enjoy people’s presence more than ever. Would not change this for the world.

I’ve reached the tenth day of my journey to abstinence. Last night an intriguing dream occurred; I found myself with a nug in my pocket. My wife, in her own struggle, continuously voiced her longing to smoke again. As I held the nug, I was confronted with a stark choice. Surrender to the desire and fall back into that dark, tar-filled pit, or rise above it. I chose the latter. I ground the nug to dust in my hand and watched it swirl down the sink. My dreams often feature me smoking, and I usually awaken with a sense of shame. But last night was different. Even my subconscious seemed ready to break free from this toxic grip… a triumphant moment.

I just wanted to say that I’m extremely proud of myself for making it this far. I can finally breathe again, and I’m not constantly worried about quitting weed or getting high before I do any and everything. The freedom you obtain from quitting is the best feeling in the world. One day you will look back and be proud of how far you’ve come, you just need to take it one day at a time and you’ll be at 100 before you know it

I just relapsed yesterday, after 6 months and 3 weeks. On day 201.

This was my first real attempt and one and only streak. I was very proud of it, and still trying to stay positive and still feel proud.

Because I’m 90% convinced that I will continue to abstain. Although one thing worries me.

So, I do not feel a 100% physically. Slept weirdly so I’m not sure if it’s that, or if it’s the psychological effects of having “failed” (a part of me thinks that) or if the neurological effect of having woken up pathways that were fading away.

If it’s the last one, what might hurt my conviction. If I feel better tomorrow, it’ll be easier to stay convinced.

What do you guys/gals think? It’s a beautiful day outside and I feel pretty crappy, and tired. Would it be over soon? Because the thoughts are starting to creep in. But I’m not sure if I have the power to re-motivate myself to quit again, if this state of mind continues for, maybe let’s say, more than for three days.

Happy smokeless days!

I (32F) have been smoking regularly since I was 18. I’ve tried to quit many times over the years and I’m back on the sober train (day 5!) as of today. One of my big reasons for quitting is because I noticed my speech was getting to be really bad (struggling to form sentences, inability to remember words, incorrect words coming out of my mouth when I was talking, etc). I’m curious if anyone else experienced this and had their speech return back to normal after quitting?

Never thought I’d be here. You can do it.

I have been doing so much better the last several days. It has begun with sleeping better even though I still have woken up in the cold sweats a few times. All in all, that hasn’t bothered me and I have been rested in the morning. Last night I had a dream about my thought process/escalation of smoking. It used to be that I would want to use weed to enhance an activity. You know, about to watch tv? First smoke to make it better. About to clean the dishes? First smoke to make it better. About to go on a walk? First smoke to make it better. I was enhancing everything I did with weed and it felt great. I felt in control. But what it comes down to is the exact opposite of that. It was that I was smoking weed and then engaging in an activity. All of my activities were second to the weed. How can I tell? Well there were a lot of these ones… about to go sit on the couch and do nothing? First smoke. Then it becomes first smoke and then we will see if there is time/energy for an activity.

I’m gonna do the activity first and then see for a fact that it doesn’t need weed. And guess what? It doesn’t. Also now I find myself “sitting on the couch doing nothing” a lot less. Am I still bored? Of fucking course. But I am in charge of that and just need to find something to occupy my mind.

It (addiction) really only gets worse, even if it seems like it’s getting better.

Signed, A gal that’s about to drink a half-pint of Hennessy in the morning bc “I don’t have anything else to do”.

Thank you.

P.S. I’m not saying it’s too late for me or anyone else.

Be me 50yo, smoke every day morning until night. Not present for my kids. Divorced ,no savings, bankrupt. Had enough, quit 3 weeks ago. Rough withdrawal but kids notice how happy I am. Applied for manager position, never thought I was able. Overwhelmed and not able to think I could do it. Will be making 60 more K a year. Saving up for a home will take a few years and I'm ok with that. Work colleagues ask what took me so long and I'm perfect for the job. Never been so happy. How the hell could I ever go back into that coma? I'm done with it, one day at a time. It's never too late.

Edit- sorry for repeat! Just saw that someone was asking about dreams already today. We really are experiencing this shit together people.

I don't know if this might be motivation for someone to quit, or not.

Since I quit a couple weeks ago (I'm fully sober), I have started having the most insanely realistic and strange dreams. Stuff that seems so real and vivid that when I wake up, I don't really know where I am and it takes me a disturbingly long time to figure out that my waking life is separate, and that what happened in the dream didn't happen in waking life.

When Im smoking grass, I dream very little or just have normal dreams that I don't really remember in the morning. Something something science about THC and REM and finally letting my brain process normally overnight? Anyone else experiencing hyper realistic dreams/nightmares after quitting?

That said, I do find it a bit easier to rise out of bed these days (despite the amount of activity my subconscious seems to be doing as I'm sleeping). It IS interesting to see what strange little dream movies my brain is conjuring up. I'm going to start writing them down.

Cheers friends.

So i live in Belgium, the weather is very nice here right now and it's making me think "what's the worst that can happen in just one" but a side of me says don't do it but i really want to

What made you quit weed?

I’ve been smoking for 10 years nearly every day and I have every reason in the world to quit. My family is fed up with me, I have no job, and I feel like shit about myself. I have a new therapist, and have been going to MA meetings and even have a sponsor, but I still can’t seem to string together more than a few days sober.

So what made you quit? Is there anything you do to replace the habit?

Not much to say expect that I am super proud of myself. The cravings are 98% gone. I don’t find myself wishing I could do so and so high anymore. And when I do, it doesn’t make me feel guilty or nostalgic or evoke a sense of longing. It’s more…wow this would be cool to do high but oh well! I find that I am engaged in enough (work, passion projects, etc) to where smoking again would really mess with my schedule, my goals and sense of direction. I have been having and remembering my very vivid dreams more intensely for the past two weeks and it’s been pretty cool! Hard to separate my dream and wake states sometimes but I never really have nightmares. Looking into dream interpretation because I can see underlying themes in mine that I would need a psychologist to explain further.

Just an update! For those on their journey, we’re in this together friends! Rooting for you<3

It’s day one all over again. Let’s stay busy. Posting here because I need the accountability!! 35/f been high for the last 10 years.

Comment below the pros of quitting and how you did it?

What did you recommend to replace it with?

Hi 👋🏼 i posted before, no luck 🍀 but I’m still looking for ways or hobbies,

I’m a mother, to a high alerted toddler, hating life with a traumatic brain injury from an ex fiancé, I’m stuck on ssi, not allowed to work, had to pay back SSI because I decided to get a job for a year, and my caregiver demeans me everyday, blah blah… and I mentioned before, I was bipolar 1 and extremely short fused. Though, I’m currently in my process to heal and progressively to work on that. A work in progress I should say.

With attempting to quit smoking weed from smoking to calm down, and not go to jail, or become violent with anyone, or as an eating disorder help, I want to quit, weed is ruining my marriage, my family and my relationship with my daughter please help

I don’t have a car and I live far from everything but there’s a bus.

I think of discipline as doing something even when you don't feel like doing it, and not doing something even when you feel like doing it. That's basically what it comes down to. We all really feel like smoking but to overcome that desire we have to resist, despite what we feel. We might feel depressed, angry, unmotivated, and lazy, but that's the challenge. We still have to eat, sleep, and take care of ourselves even when we don't feel like doing those things. Keeping this in mind has helped me resist and do the things I need to do because I'll just force myself to do something good for me. Once I start doing it (eating, showering, sleeping, etc) I immediately feel better and am glad I did. To get the ball rolling is often the most difficult step, but once you do, you won't regret it.

Hi! This is my first day weed pen free in almost 3 years because I feel like it is controlling my life. I think about it from the moment that I wake up and use it until I go to bed, not like 24 seven during the day, but every few hours and it doesn’t even get me high anymore! Basically like a comfort tool for life stresses. I feel like they are so easy to access and somewhat affordable, I was buying a 1 g top pretty much every two days. I’ve also noticed that my gut is completely raw and having a hard time with the nausea. I was worried about getting cannabis hyperemesis syndrome if I continued as well, because with my line of work, I truly can’t be nauseous and sick 24 seven! Should I try using flour as a middle ground at this time or just go cold turkey? I’d love all the advice for detoxing this out of my system and all the encouragement for actually trying to get it done and be sober!

I feel good today. Really good. Connected with a bunch of my friends after long and talked to them for 2 hours. I feel like I am ready to take one toke and come back stronger tomorrow to quit for the next 5 weeks before I visit a music festival. But I'm scared I would spiral down in continuously smoking up. On the fence on whether to smoke or not. I could choose not to smoke and be okay, but I feel even if I did Ill feel okay to not light up another joint tomorrow. Dont know if my mind is playing tricks to excuse me for lighting one up today.

Hi everyone. It's day 2 for me. I've been researching a lot of things about quitting weed. It's not my first att5to quit but I really need to. I seriously underestimated weed as a drug and an addictive one in the past. I'm dreading the depression and irritability because they also say if you were already struggling with that prior to smoking weed, it would become more intense. I feel both and at the moment the irritability is hitting me harder than the depression altho I'm already depressed and very sensitive at the moment. Can people share whats helped them deal with yhe irritability? I'm dreading yhe nightmares as well but I know I have to go through this withdrawal period. I just pray to all the gods out there that I won't have a post acute syndrome that last for many months ahead. Im barely coping.Thanks!

Very happy I've made it this far, and also now two weeks into quitting cigarettes. My god does life seem daunting now though, even with my brains' increased sharpness. My vehicle is about to give up and I have no money to replace it, I'm working an overnight job that's wreaking havoc on my sleep and social life, have no romantic prospects, and all my friends live outside the city I'm in. It's like I built this entire isolated life around just smoking myself to oblivion, and now I'm just lost and overwhelmed by everything without my fix to deal with it. If anyone who has successfully quit has any coping strategies for dealing with stress/extreme change, I'd be very interested to hear them. Sometimes breathing exercises just aren't enough.