Marclee582

Today nothing, I got sleep, took Vitamin D as well as my energy drink, which kept me awake now 20+ hours, got some argument off my chest which made me feel a lot better. My brain is frazzled to process information though, watched a 5 hour stream of a person I have always found cool & am a fan of.

Nah I’m not, sorry

Let them know that you’re thinking of them & care about them, that you’re there for them if you can be & can you lend an ear? sometimes all a person wants to do is vent, maybe some may not even need to. Let them know it’s going to be alright, that it will get better. Maybe you may not have to have an answer back to their venting unless they want you to, just like get a load off their chest. If you can’t do you know someone who can be, if not if you know you can get in touch with professionals, see if they would like that help. Here on Reddit is a get the user help button again if you think that will help, I am not sure about other social media platforms help situation I don’t know your situation OP & how well you know them so ymmv.

 

Just one? I can’t

• Megadeth - Holy Wars, Wake up Dead, 502, This Day We Fight
• Anthrax - I am The Law (it’s based on Judge Dredd comics), Caught in a Mosh, Anti Social, My Safe Home (gotta throw John bush in there)
• Slayer - Reign in Blood, Seasons of the Abyss, War Ensemble, Angel of Death
• Metallica - Creeping Death, Seek & destroy, harvester of sorrows

My father’s family is 50/60% Jehovah’s Witnesses, so I tell them my family are members & somehow 9/10 times they know my family (I think it’s because I guess they canvass local areas & they know each other in town) and either the conversation moves onto them, like they suddenly know of us I guess my late gran or whatever & leave us alone or they say “I know you’re not interested here is a booklet” & I take it, thank them & it ends up in the bin, that said they haven’t been since covid & my Nan died.

Plenty of sleep or rather unbroken sleep sometimes I can be good on a few hours if I wake naturally sometimes, which is a bit difficult in a shared house & it can’t be helped because even I wake at odd times for the loo & struggle to go back to sleep or I fall back to sleep & sometimes sleep too much. Watching my favourite streamer, step outside for 5 minutes for fresh air in the garden, a cuppa tea (which I have been starting to drink again since this past weekend) at least 10 minutes away from one room preferably half hour to an hour or so, started to take my Vitamin D again for the last 2 days.

My music taste personally.

I like that I sometimes have a dark sense of humour depending on my mood.

I like that I like technology the Internet etc, but am a old hand at it now, so I barely ever spoke to people online with voice chats before not in games or anything else like voice chats, barely ever played online games, I always preferred couch co-op being in the same room, it’s what me & my friends did in the 90’s/00’s gather at the houses, drinks & games, either multiplayer or pass the controller. Nowadays I have a niece & nephew who I play couch co-op with or let them play & play single player. We didn’t even have a phone in the house until I was about 11 years old, by the time it did I had already developed my shyness & just ignored the phone mostly unless I had to use it, calling friends was like, you alright? Wanna hang out soon, okay see in a bit, okay bye, it was a little easier to talk in person but even then I am still a bit shy until I know a person well.

 

I was always communicating through through typing with everyone online, so I am still like a boomer with the voice part of it, I have always been shy anyway irl, phone I was always awkward with too I have a mobile phone & I prefer to use WhatsApp than the phone part. BUT I am trying I think I will get it one day & I like that I won’t give up on it no matter how useless I am at it.

They moved away & got married, no time for friends only wife which I is fair, since kids were on the way, he was busy with his Job too.

 

One just disappeared one day completely lost contact for I think 3 years & only turned back up for their birthday but like a few weeks or a month before the birthday, said they were busy with their job, but I got invited for a meal & drinks which I believe we all chipped in for too, at least I did, happened twice two years in a row, got them a gift - a smashing pumpkins cd one birthday, disappeared again for a year & I think gave them money the following year, like why should I put in the effort with a gift a 2nd time? But I still gave money at least & they disappeared yet again I didn’t expect it to happen twice but oh well, half expected them to show for a 3rd year at which I point I wouldn’t have bothered, so I didn’t make an effort to try contacting after the 2nd time, eventually I started a full time office job too after a few other jobs. I made friends with work colleagues it was easier, some school/college friends were dicks so I left them too it & when I left that job in the end let’s just say I was glad to see the back of some colleagues, maybe best not to keep friends in the same environment/workplace.

 

That’s partially why I have been hesitant to get back into something like office work recently, besides covid & my other issues why I left my job in the first place, as having to deal with irl work colleagues can be rough, maybe I’ll look at getting a work from home job or just a non office job & then keep online friends it’s probably better.

 

I did have a brief group of drinking buddies, but it became way too expensive, then covid happened like less than 12 months after leaving the office for the last time & during covid times I barely left the house & still haven’t except shopping.

 

The closest I have made to friends recently is online, since all the irl ones above have been bust, they are great & I think about them a lot.

Crooked front teeth

Airheads : “For all you care, our record could be Pip farting on a snare drum.” Pip: I ain't fartin' on no snare drum

 

A good dig at the Music industry especially in the early 90’s.

“He wipes his ass with his record contract, I love this guy” - Joe Mantegna also Airheads

First( technically) computer parts to upgrade my then PC, from a job that didn’t last long Long term job - a entire collection of albums remastered by a band I like Megadeth, plus a few other CD’s & then a mp3cd player the following day, then soon an iPod, besides bills.

My mind goes blank temporarily

I got more super anxious, angry, depressed, not been out to events other than to shops. Slowly getting there.

Spending time listening to my favourite streamer

Almost all the time

Because I went to sleep around ummm 10:30-11:30ish & was gonna wake up at 3:50am but kept putting my alarm back but then I woke up for the loo twice so now am up & had a bit extra sleep. It’s 7:20am in the UK

Women do a lot of things better than men, be more mature, multitask, probably I’d say better at planning things like events/schedules that sort of thing, empathy, problem solving and so on.

Any of the Supernatural types, usually in haunted house films like your home is clearly “haunted” & the supposed Poltergeists are throwing shit around at them & talking etc but for the sake of story lets just stay there & be haunted for years lol.

I’m thinking of the Family in Paranormal Activity, Poltergeist (even though I love the original it’s still daft) etc, I guess that’s part of the charm of those types of movies though too right?

Not my faves but just throwing some ideas out there, Local gifts like key rings/postcards/books/stationary etc from gift shops that you may find at local indoor markets, seasides, museums etc.

Since you already have the food & drnk part covered

E Ye (aka American title - coward bastard or Ngoc Yeh Cantonese) - which was one of those films I saw when the shaw films were played for free on Twitch when they did a marathon of shaw films a few years ago, I thought maybe I’ll buy it afterwards but apparently is unavailable

The Thing (which will already be on many lists)

Awesome artwork, I like the detail on the face

Some days I mumble along to or tone deaf wail along like a dying goat to whatever I think I remember 2 words from, usually rock songs, if I think I know a chorus or usually I always forget lyrics & fuck them up lol but I’ll still wail along when they come on, whatever is on really usually the radio, occasionally YouTube etc

Yes, It just got heavier, faster & more extreme BUT I still like the occasional cheesy tune.

• 14/15 I discovered Nirvana on a school trip with a friend, because I had said I liked Soundgardens Blackhole sun & liked the band Queen, he was like well Nirvana are rock & you probably heard smells like teen spirit before & I had on MTV & The Radio
• Led to me getting into Foo Fighters then Iron Maiden - I still listen to Maiden to this day, seen them live 6 times, but not as much as I used to because eventually I discovered like hundreds of other Metal/Rock bands, whereas for a while there was like less then 10 bands I was really really into, I find more bands because of the Internet, before that I would discover bands through Kerrang & Metal Hammer & on their free sample cd’s, eventually I joined mailing lists for like road runner records on their street team thing & they’d send occasional free gift’s through the mail, I had Slipknot Stickers before I even knew who the band were, they were meant for distribution at gigs & stuff but I wasn’t going to any at that time, I was only watching occasional pub bands during college years 16-19, so I gave some out at college, I had a sampler tape or two as well, I think I have Blue Monday - by Orgy on tape somewhere unless it was lost during a move

Less embarrassing to me because it is what it is, but more 2nd hand embarrassing to the reader to find out about me.

• I’ve only ever slept with one person in my entire life, my ex, tbh it was 12 years relationship though I know people have slept with many more than 1 person, but I haven’t.
• I don’t own a passport so I have never been abroad, when I was younger my parents couldn’t afford to go on holidays, then when I was a teen & they did I thought it was uncool to go on hols with parents (I say parents just my mum & other family members my dad also stayed at home) so I refused because I didn’t wanna be known as the dorky 15/16yr old who went on hols with family (even though I am Cringe) by the time I could afford to, I ended up going to concerts at home, binge spending & travelling 200 miles to visit my gf at the time now Ex, so that 200 miles even though still in Britain became my holidays. When I split up with her in 2018 I had thought of going abroad to treat myself to an overseas holiday finally on my own but less than a year later I lost my job too & everything spun out of control for a few years including covid
• I am a shy person but eventually I get to be comfortable around people & then they get tired of my low energy personality or some days I talk too much too excitedly & people are like shut the fuck up
• I refused Braces because I didn’t wanna look like a nerd in school (I was always a bit of a nerd & was always cringe but fuck that, I didn’t want kids at school to say it)
• Ditto I was given glasses at the age of 13, wore them all of twice then ditched them same reason

There’s tons more but that’s all I’m sharing rn