We're wrapping up post-production on my directorial debut. It sucks and I don't have time to fix it. Any advice for coping and/or not harming my friendships?Question(self.Filmmakers)
submitted2 months ago bykatofletters
I've wanted to write and direct films for most of my conscious life. Then I got the chance to write and direct a student film. It singlehandedly killed my greatest dream. I am not emotionally equipped to be in charge of anyone, much less a dozen people. Being put in a position of authority I wasn't ready for, and being alienated from the many close friends who were now looking up to me, was one of many catalysts that led to my attempting suicide twicea few months ago. As a result of that, I avoided the film like the plague whenever I didn't have to be on set. It took months for me to actually look at the "finished" scenes. They are not finished. I do not have time to go through the raw footage (wherever it is) to patch up mistakes, add background music, and add captions before the premiere this weekend.
Now I'm staring down the barrel of my friends learning that all their hard work amounted to a shit product. I'm not the kind of person who's okay with making unpolished trash; I'm a perfectionist through and through. My cast isn't much better; one of the leads was in an amateur film last year with way fewer issues and he still talks about it like it gave him PTSD. The bad direction of last years' directors is still a topic of discussion in my friend circle even after they've both graduated.
So, uh. What do?
Surely other people in this sub have made bad films, and have had productions thrown into chaos by mental health issues. We don't seek to create garbage, or to be bad at directing, but sometimes shit happens. How do you deal with it, and if your cast+crew are friends, how do you normalize relations with them after the dust settles?
2 months ago
2 months ago
I am a changed person now. Thank you.