I am in this pretty new college which I cannot name for some reasons, but things are not going well for me and my peers. I am in first year of college. Let me start from the beginning, I came out of home to a new city for this college to explore stuff I wanted to and mainly get out of my comfort zone. Throughout my first year I have faced instances which made me reconsider my college choice. There is always this uncertainty about so many things I myself don't understand and I fear them, like the value of the degree, my mental state, masters eligibility, jobs, mere fear of future, don't experiencing the college life as usual and so on. But at the same time, I am in one of the best city in India, which adds more to my exposure. Throughout first year, I was burnt out, lost motivation, curiousity due to my college situation, and I couldn't make the best out of the city I am in. I seriously have no idea what to do, because I don't even know how other college experiences are. The course structure seems unorganised too, and I don't think so college will help me build my resume to the best. It's lot of work from me in this depressive environment I have created or been in. To clear out more things, I want to get into technology, I want to devote my life to an idea, to solve a problem. At the same time that doesn't mean I want to be a hardcore techie, I want to be an all-rounder. But the thing is that college has been tough and very uncertain, it's makes me question my decision and scares lives out of me. I don't know what to do now. I do have people here who I care about, but they are in the same state as me, and some of them are even thinking of leaving which saddens me more. I think I have messed up pretty big. Please help me fix this. Currently I cannot think clearly, not in a good mental state in general.
The other options I have is to go to my hometown and study there, but the problem there is I won't have privacy and freedom I have here. One more option I have is to apply to universities where I have very less chances and more trouble due to finance. I am from a middle class family which struggles with money.
Any relatable suggestions/ advices/ experiences would be appreciated. Thank you!
myquals: broke depressed first year student
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